outta here...woohoo!

The time has come , Mr. Breazy and I are blowing this taco stand for the next couple of days . At the first of the week I didn't think that friday would ever arrive but with everything we had to do it kinda snuck up on us . As you can tell from my lack of blogging lately , which I do apologize for , we have been like triple busy this week and it isn't over yet . Mr. Breazy is off tomorrow and he will leave out early in the morning to run errands that he has to run and I will take the kids and drop them at school then do my errands quickly because I have to be back to the elementary school by ten am because tomorrow is their annual walk for donations . The kids go to family and friends and get donations for laps they walk or they can get straight donations instead of someone promising to pay a dollar a lap . I always partcipate in this marathon and so far every year I have walked twice each time because I have always had two kids in the elementary school . Next year I will feel lost since my son will be the only one in the elementary school.

I took my 14 yr old daughter shopping for a prom dress tonight . I dreaded the trip all day long and I had labeled it "the trip to hell" because my daughter and I can't shop together , we fight too much over what will be bought . Anyways , I am very proud to announce that we bought a nice black gown . Why she wanted black , I don't know , I prefer colors but she wanted black so we bought black . She didn't want the big poofy , frilly dress either . Instead she wanted a simple , flat dress the can be wore more than once . I am happy with her choice ! The trip went well and it was the first time we have shopped together and not fought . After such a good trip I treated her to a Mexican dinner for just the two of us . It was really nice to spend some time alone with her !

Mr. Breazy and I don't know where we are headed to as of yet because each time that we try to get away for the weekend and we plan it all out , something comes up and we can't get away for the whole weekend so this time we are going to throw a bag in the van and hit the road in whatever direction takes our fancy .

Night before last my son pulled a tooth . He is 8 and 1/2 and he knows who the toothfairy is but he likes money so he keeps it up . He went to sleep and woke up before ten with bad dreams that night so he went and got in my bed . I wondered just how scared he really was because he brought his little tooth in the baggie with him and put it under the pillow on my bed . Needless to say , we forgot to put his dollar under there and he wasn't happy about that so he came home from school yesterday , got a pencil and paper and wrote this , " Dear Toothfairy, I am in my moms bed . My tooth is under the dark blue pillow on the right side of the bed , please put my money under that pillow " . After writing this he proceeded to tell his dad and I about it and made sure that we both read it and understood it , why the kid didn't just say " One of y'all leave a dollar under my pillow , okay " , I don't know but he done the note thing . I think that he thinks if he comes out and tells us that he knows who the toothfairy is then we won't leave him the dollar per tooth , that isn't true though. I just thought the whole thing was funny !

I was thinking today about how odd it will feel on saturday with it being my birthday and I will not be spending the day with my kids . Normally the kids do all kinds of special things for me on my birthday but this is the only time that Mr. Breazy and I will have to go away. One tradition that we do is on each persons birthday , that person gets special treatment from the rest of us all day . The kids enjoy it and we just like to see them happy .

Well I am off to bed now so y'all be safe and take care !

What I like ... Wednesday

I have decided to start my own little thing for Wednesdays . It is called "What I like " and really all it is , is me posting lyrics to a songs I like or posting pics of paintings , or poetry .. you get the idea , anyways, for this wednesday I have picked a song off of Carrie Underwoods new cd "Some Hearts" . For all of you ladies who have been cheated on before , you are gonna love the lyrics to this song . And before anyone asks , no I am not using this song because Mr. Breazy has been unfaithful , I really like this song . Let me know if you have heard it and what you think of the lyrics whether you have heard it or not ! Enjoy !!

Before He Cheats

Right now he's probably slow dancing with a bleach-blond tramp, and she's probably getting frisky...
right now, he's probably buying her some fruity little drink cause she can't shoot whiskey...
Right now, he's probably up behind her with a pool-stick, showing her how to shoot a combo...
And he don't know...

(Chorus)
That I dug my key into the side of his pretty little suped up 4 wheel drive, carved my name into his leather seat...
I took a Louisville slugger to both head lights, slashed a hole in all 4 tires...
And maybe next time he'll think before he cheats.

Right now, she's probably up singing some white-trash version of Shania karoke..
Right now, she's probably saying "I'm drunk" and he's a thinking that he's gonna get a lucky,
Right now, he's probably dabbing on 3 dollars worth of that bathroom Polo... oh, And he don't know... oh--------

(Chorus)
That I dug my key into the side of his pretty little suped up 4 wheel drive, carved my name into his leather seat,
I took a Louisville slugger to both head lights, slashed a hole in all 4 tires...
And maybe next time he'll think before he cheats.

I might of saved a little trouble for the next girl,
Cause the next time that he cheats...
Oh, you know it won't be on me! Ohh... not on me...

(Chorus)
Cause I dug my key into the side of his pretty little suped up 4 wheel drive, carved my name into his leather seat...
I took a Louisville slugger to both head lights, slashed a hole in all 4 tires...

Maybe next time he'll think before he cheats.
Ohh.. Maybe next time he'll think before he cheats...

Ohh... before he cheats...

back...

Hey all ! I am sorry I kinda left y'all hanging in the middle of a post last night . I was on here typing up a post and my husband came running from the bedroom to tell me to call my mom and ask her to come sit with the kids and for me to get dressed because his dad had just been admitted to the hospital. We were at the hospital until a little after one this morning and the doctors are pretty sure that they are going to have to remove my father-in-laws galbladder. We are waiting on some more news from the hospital right now as to whether he will be having surgery today or not . Whew! Anyways.....

I have a very full schedule today so this one is going to be short. Hopefully I will have more time later tonight , if I am not at the hospital , to come back and post more ! Y'all have a good day and thank you for the well wishes for my father-in-law!

comin' up for air...

Hey all ! It has been one wild , busy weekend for me that just happened to tumble into today , that's why I am posting so late. My son had a baseball game friday night that got called in the bottom of the 2nd inning due to lightning and tornado warnings . Then on saturday he had his regular saturday game then they had to make fridays game up on sunday . My sons team is UNDEFEATED!!!! GO CUBS!!!! My son kept telling his coach on saturday that he wanted to play second base some too , this was after he asked before the first game to play left center . Well Coach Dan put him on 2nd base on saturday for a few innings then he played the whole game at second base on sunday . Out of those two days he only missed one ball that was coming at him and that was because the ball done a big hop too far over his head that he couldn't jump and get it .

I have a really full plate this week and I am wanting friday to get here so bad that I can't stand it . In the mean time I have girl scout functions , fiddle lessons, prom dress shopping , church , baseball practice , banjo lessons , a family class for girl scouts so that my daughter can earn a rare badge , and lots of other things to do . On friday the elementary school is having their "BEAR run" and I have to go walk laps with my daughter and my son then I can take them home , pack their clothes and send them to their grandmothers so that Mr. Breazy and I can hit the road for our weekend . I hate to leave y'all hanging here but Mr. Breazy just got a phone call and I have to go . His father has been admitted to the hospital . Bye!

results and new backsides....

Hey all ! Even though the title sounds like it , I am not going to be talking about weight loss tonight. The results are from my husband layspeaking at church last night and the new backside is something I am going to hand a certain gentleman if he doesn't quit staring at my daughter .

Yesterdays post mentioned that my husband was going to be layspeaking at church last night . I have to tell you all that I was soooooo nervous that I bit three of my fingernails into the quick the past few days from nervousness , the funny thing is that I quit biting my nails almost a year ago . I wasn't nervous because I didn't have faith in my sweet husband but because he was nervous and he is NEVER nervous . Of course I can see why he was nervous , it isn't everyday that you stand in front of a congregation and bring a message for the first time . On top of that , even though he hasn't announced his calling yet , everyone knows that he has been called , pretty much anyway. Another thing that made me nervous is that by him bringing a message it brought the whole " I am married to a preacher " kinda thing to reality, instead of just a conversation that we have( I hope that makes sense). Anyways, he stepped up to the pulpit last night and I was so proud of him . You just have to know my husband . I have been with him for 14 & 1/2 yrs and just in the last six or seven years has he been able to open up and joke and talk with my parents . That is why I am so proud of him ! He done a wonderful job !

Now about the new backsides . I dropped my 14 yr old daughter off at school monday morning and I noticed the new teacher outside that watches the kids coming in . Each monday there is a different teacher out there and I had never saw this guy before . I always take my time driving around the circle after my daughter gets out so that I see her walk in the doors . Anyways , I noticed this teacher watching her walk . On the first day I thought nothing of it because she was the only one being dropped off , there were like two cars pulling up behind me and their children hadn't got out yet. This male teacher looks about my age , 30 . When I dropped her off on tuesday I noticed that he watched her every step again . This really made me mad! I told my daughter that I was uncomfortable with the way he was looking at her so we made sure that she walked in with other people yesterday , he still stared at her . Today when I dropped her off there were no other cars behind or in front of me so I made sure he saw me watching him watch my daughter and when my daughter got out of the car I let him know I was watching him . I can't wait to take her to school tomorrow because if he stares at her I am gonna rip him a new booty then I am going to the principal . My daughter is not a prime steak waiting on his dinner plate and if he doesn't keep his roaming eyes to himself tomorrow he is going to find that out in a very nasty way ! You can do what you want to me but you don't mess with my kids ! It will actually be "tomorrow" by the time you all read this so I will do an update to let you know what goes on .

Y'all be safe and take care ! Good night , sleep tight , don't let the bed bugs bite .. :)

What the...........?

I am so happy today ! I went to weigh in earlier and was so surprised at what I weigh that I thought I was going to faint . I have lost 3.6 lbs since monday ... how did that happen ? I didn't do anything different ... but it just came off . I am now at a total loss of 16.2 lbs in five weeks and I am proud to announce that I have earned my spot on the Big Losers Board for the second week in a row. This is the only time in my life that I have felt good about being called a big loser and having it advertised.......lol !

We have a big thing happening today in my family and all of us are very excited and a bit nervous . So you wanna know what the big thing is .... well..... tonight my husband will be bringing his first message at church . That is right ! I am not at liberty to say much more except maybe explain some things . Why have I never said a word about my husband being a preacher? because he isn't a preacher just yet . Instead he has chosen to do some layspeaking first to get his feet wet . When the time comes for him to step out I will explain more on the matter. Layspeaking basically means that he will bring a short message and instead of preaching hard he will be mainly talking through it. I like to look at it as a class called " Preaching 101".

Mr. Breazy and I are preparing to go away not this weekend but next because my birthday is on the 29th of this month and our 13th anniversary is on May 1st. I am ready for some downtime . I think we will be renting a cabin in the mountains unless Mr. Breazy changes his mind and figures out somewhere he wants to go . I don't care as long as we are alone , there is a bed and hot tub !

That is about all I have for now so y'all be safe and take care !

whew!

Wow! I have been so busy this weekend and yesterday . I feel like it has been a hundred years since I actually posted , however, it has only been three days . We had a wonderful Easter , I hope all of you did as well . I am still doing good on my weight loss and I weigh in tomorrow to find out how much all total I have lost . My menu plan should change tomorrow , meaning that my portions should get smaller , thank goodness ! I am doing good to eat the food they want me to eat so I am excited about getting a drop in the amounts . The greatest thing about my weight loss is that my clothes are starting to bag and I have went down a size in pants/shorts !YAY me!

Saturday was a really good day , busy but good . First off we had to run to Wal-Mart to pick up a couple things for our church's easter egg hunt and lunch . We had to leave the hunt and lunch early because my son had a baseball game . My son is 8 and this is the last year that they will be doing coach pitch , it is so fun to watch these little guys play because they look like minature adults . The game is starting to get serious to them instead of just being something fun . They do still have fun and chill out but they also get business taken care of . My son is once again on the Cubs , this is the third time out of four years of playing that he has been on the Cubs . They are 2-0 so far , winning their first game with 11-8 then saturday taking the victory with 19-10 . They are really good and they are starting to get use to each others playing style so it is looking to be a really great season.

I am so ready for July 8th to get here because that is the day that we leave for our two week beach vacation . Before we get vacation we have to get school over with which means we have my oldest daughters eighth grade graduation and my youngest daughters fifth grade graduation . I am so gonna cry at both . My babies are growing up on me , heck my fourteen year old is already an inch taller than me and my ten year old is closing in on my height. They call me the runt of the family . hehe ! My ten year old daughter and I already wear the same size shoe and it blows me away because I am thinking that someone is feeding my children miracle grow behind my back ....hehe!
Anyways, I guess that is about all of the yapping I am going to do today . Y'all take care , be safe , and come back now , ya hear !

Happy Easter..

Hey all ! I just wanted to pop in real quick . Today is a busy day since the kids are out of school . If you can't read the pic it says " May God Bless You This Easter and Always" . I mean that from the bottom of my heart . We are gearing up for a huge easter egg hunt tomorrow at our church . We will be serving hot dogs, chips , fruits and so on . I weighed in yesterday and I was surprised to see that I have lost 13.2 lbs in less than a month . I am really excited about it and can't wait to weigh in tomorrow . Well I have to go now . You all be safe and take care this weekend . Enjoy your time with your families ! Happy Easter ! :)

pc's , eye infections and more blah blah blah ..

As most of you read in one of my posts last weekend , I now I have a new digital camera . I am also a joint member of highjacked . This weeks theme over there was crime . Each one of us were supposed to get a pic of ourselves doing something we aren't supposed to do , mine was smoking near a no smoking sign . Well , I have my pic but I am having trouble getting it downloaded on to my pc . Finally a friend helped me figure out why the other night , I have a virus or trojan so I am going to attempt to fix it today with the help of said friend . I am a little ticked because this is my first week with my new camera and I was so prepared for hnt both here and on highjacked and then this happens . Oh well , look out because next week I am posting pics!

Remember that eye infection I have been battling for almost two weeks now ? I am thanking my lucky stars that mine is bacterial and not fungal . For those of you who wear contact lenses and it is warming up in your area , you might need to read this to keep yourself protected .

The sinus gods have decided to be good to me today as I am feeling much better . I am still all stopped up , sneezing and all the fun stuff that goes along with sinus/allergy problems but I feel soooo much better physically today . My kids were all excited this morning because they are out of school tomorrow , they are also excited about Easter and the huge egg hunt our church is hosting on saturday . All of the eggs have prizes in them so my kids are really ready . Well , I am going to sign off and go peek at some hnt pics . Y'all have a good day !

I'm here I think

Hey all ! Sorry I haven't posted in a day or so but I haven't been feeling well . Remember the eye infection I mentioned last week , well it is back and with a vengence ! Not only that , last night was my sons first baseball game and I forgot just what all that dust does to me so I woke up this morning in fine shape let me tell ya ! My eyes were stuck together from drainage , the first thing I had to was blow my nose and pray that I didn't blow my head off . I wasn't a bit happy to see that my sinuses are bleeding , my throat is sore and to put the icing on the cake , all of that junk I just mentioned has caused my belly to start twirling as fast as it can everytime I move . I have made a run for the bathroom several times this morning on false alarms and that is after climbing out of bed . Finally I gave up trying to rest , got up and in the shower , put my make up on (very little especially around the eyes) , fixed my hair so here I am .

I can hear the bed screaming for me and the more it screams the heavier my eyelids get but if I went in there to lie down I wouldn't be able to rest a bit . If I were not on a diet I would call my mom and ask her to come over and make me some homemade potato soup with homemade biscuits . That is what she always made for me when I was little and I was sick , it always seemed to make everything better then so I guess I was having a moment of wishful thinking for now . I think I am going to get off of here now because my stomach is doing summersaults again and the words on the screen are a bit more blurry than they should be . If anything is misspelled in the post just act like it is all correct because I can't see too well right now with the eye infection kicking and all . Y'all have good day !

my interview..

Breazy is someone I had an acquaintance with in Yahoo! Trivia rooms. She always came across as a fun player with a great sense of humor. Since Snavy got me addicted.....erm....sorry, interested in blogging I've gotten to know Breazy better. She was on the original sidebar links since she came 'pre-installed' at Insane Asylime. She has been a consistent visitor and commentor here and a was great encouragement when I came here. I think anyone who knows Breazy either from her blog or her comments at their place would also typify her as an encouragement. Also, when she attacks a new project or goal she seems to do so with genuine enthusiasm and excitement, even something that can be as frustrating and difficult as weight loss. I've enjoyed her zest and humor and getting to know her a bit more over these past several months. She claims not to be sweet all the time, I'm not sure I buy it but maybe her kids would confirm it after her 'Got My Game Face On' post this week. (sorry the linky magic doesn't seem to be working for me....do you have post pages enabled, Miss Breazy, ma'am?) Her blog is often a sharing of her daily life with a husband and three kids, the joys, frustrations, successes, and hopes. She throws in a smattering of great jokes and a tag now and then to mix it up. True to form, she had a really encouraging comment for my interview with Jericho and then volunteered for her own interview. So Breazy, here goes...


1. On November 30 you shared, 'Some of you know that my husband bought me a banjo a few weeks ago . The banjo is very new and odd to me since I have only played the piano , clarinet and flute but I have always been fascinated with the banjo and I am very determined to learn it . I have been told that I better think about my decision to play one since they are one of the hardest instruments to learn . I will be starting lessons after Christmas and New Years is over but in the meantime my daughters friend plays the banjo and he is really good at it for a 13 year old . He has came over a couple of times to show me some small things to get started with such as, familiarizing myself with the rolls with my right hand , those are actually hard to get used to but I practiced and practiced and viola , I got them down'.

On January 27 you said, 'Have you ever had a dream that you knew would one day happen but you just didn't know when ? Mr. Breazy and I have had a dream to build a home of our own for several years now but we couldn't because the land we wanted to build on wasn't available to us , until recently . I can't tell you how excited we are ! We should be breaking ground in June or July .'

I so admire that you are so musical and determined to pick up something new, make a dream reality. I am thrilled for you and Mr. Breazy being able to achieve this other goal too. So I want to ask you...Do you have any other big dreams and what will you do to make them happen? What advice do you have to other people who see dreams slipping from their grasp?

First of all I want to thank you Lime for taking the time to dig through all of my archives and create these questions . I also want to thank you for the kind things you said about me . As for the answers ... here goes ...

This was the hardest question of the five for me to answer because I don't want to sound corny or too happy go lucky , but the fact is I really don't have any other big dreams because I am happy with the way my life is . The only thing that I could say is even close to a dream is that I want to visit Ireland some day . I have always wanted to see Ireland since the first time I was told about it as a child . I also married a man who has more Irish in him than anything and he wants to visit Ireland as well . Mr. Breazy and I plan on going for a visit when the kids get a bit older . I don't mind if the kids go or not but I want them to be old enough to enjoy the experience whereas , if we were to go right now , my son is 8 and he would get bored in no time. For the second part of the question , Mr. Breazy and I have wanted to build a house for a long time . We could have built a house at anytime but the thing was not the house itself but the location . I don't intend this the way it is going to sound but we knew that we couldn't build on that land until my grandfather passed and the deed was in our hand . When my grandfather died on December 31, 2005 , that land was the farthest thing from my mind . As much as I want that land , I would rather have my grandfather than that land . Through the years Mr. Breazy and I have just kept our mind focused on that land . There have been times we have been down and out because we chose to rent instead of buy or build elsewhere . There have been times , even now , that it feels like we will never break ground but I just keep positive thoughts in my mind . I saw a quote on a church bulletin one day and I always think of it when I want to give up or if I see others give up on a dream . The quote said " what see , often depends on what we are looking for " . Those words are more true than I can say . When I take on a project and it seems that sometimes it is too much and I am ready to give up , Mr. Breazy always says to me " Heather , can't never could" , "nothing is free nor easy and the harder you work for it and the more you put into it will be all them more reward when you get where your headed" . If I knew someone with a dream slipping I would tell them not to give up , to grab hold with all of their might because any one of us can make a dream happen if we are willing . There are always more paths to take to get what we really want when one way doesn't work and in my opinion , if you really believe in yourself and/or in the dream , you can make it happen .


2. Describe to me your dream house. I am not asking for a floor plan but for the mood created, the people who will fill it, the uses you desire for it, the feeling you want people to have when they enter and when they exit.

For our home I want it to be a place where family and friends know that they are welcome no matter what , that they can come there anytime day or night and will be welcomed with open arms. Mr. Breazy runs a hardwood flooring business and I get to see alot of beautiful , immaculate homes and sometimes even though they are beautiful , they feel untouchable or magazine perfect, unlived in or maybe like a museum . I don't want my home to be that way and I don't mean that homes that way are bad but I want a home that feels lived in , a home that you can walk in , look around and know that the residents of that space are comfortable and welcoming .
I was born and raised here in East Tennessee and I am all for the country home feel because it just feels so inviting to me and I want our guests , be it friend or family , to feel . Where family is concerened , I am huge on having "get togethers" as we call them around here . When people exit my home , I want them to leave with the desire to come back and feel as if sitting on the porch, watching the kids play is the most important thing they have to do . I want it to be a gathering place because we love doing bbq's and dinner and inviting guests over .
I want this home to be a sanctuary to my kids and husband . I want them to desire to come home at the end of their day .


3. In your 101 Things About Breazy on September 30 you list
49. I am a worry wort
50. I have an obsession with cleanliness
51. I take 2 to 3 showers a day ---read #50
52. I have to have organization or I am not happy
53. nor is anyone else around me
How big an obsession is this? Are you able to control it at all or does it completely control you? How unhappy do you become and how unhappy are those around you if your standards are unmet? Is this something you want to change or is the status quo ok?

this is a really big obsession , however , in November 2004 I took a step back to look at the big picture concerning my cleaning obsession. I realized that if I didn't let up a bit , my family would end up hating me and not wanting to be around me for fear of me starting on them about cleaning or picking up after themselves. I use to be really bad about it to the point that I couldn't have fun unless my house was spotless . Before , there were times that I would spend my whole day cleaning then after I went to bed I would lay awake worrying about this or that to the point that I would have to get up and do some things over . Now things are different . I can actually leave a couple of dishes in my sink while I go out to run errands or if I am pushed for time I can skip the sweeping for a couple of days . LOL! Normally about two days is as long as I can go without sweeping but it is better than before .
The house we rent has hardwood flooring in it and the landlord sanded and finished them herself . They floors are stained with a gel stain in dark walnut . With that being said , the darker the floor the more the dust shows and that is where my problem lies as far as the floors are concerned. Now , before I started working on my problem I would wait on my kids to clean their rooms and then if they weren't to my satisfaction , I would go in when they were at school and do it myself . I would collect their laundry and carry it to the utility room and correct anything they half-assed . Now a days , things are completely different . If they don't clean their room correctly , then it waits for them and I start stripping their room for each time I tell them to do it . In November of 2004 when I decided to quit letting this obsession rule my world , I laid down the rules to the kids and Mr. Breazy . Starting with laundry finds its own transportation to the utility room , I don't check pockets and I don't turn clothes right side out when they are all knotted up and inside out. I refuse to collect dirty clothes from any room other than the utility room and if it isn't in the hamper it doesn't get washed . Most importantly , I refuse to wash clothes that are clean but have been thrown in with the dirty .
There are times when our schedules are really hectic and can't do the cleaning that I feel needs to be done and when I finally get a day to do it I start panicking and getting overwhelmed . That is when Mr . Breazy steps in and puts himself and the kids to helping and I will be fine . When they help I never complain about something not being done the exact way that I do it , instead I am thankful for the help .


4. In the same list you share that you became a mother at age 16. In today's post you say 'My birthday is the 29th , I will be 31, and our anniversary is on May 1st . I can't believe we have been married for 13yrs . It sure doesn't seem like it nor does it seem like we have together for 15 and a half years . I have always looked at my marriage as having a best friend with benefits kinda relationship because Mr. Breazy is my best friend and he knows me better than any other human on the face of this earth .' Other places you have remarked that he is your soulmate. Most people would be inclined to think of marriage and motherhood at such a young age as a less than optimal way to begin a life and would greet it with skepticism regarding hopes for happiness and longevity.

I am truly inspired by the relationship the two of you have and so I want to know how did you beat the odds? What is it that makes things work so well for you and Mr. Breazy? How do you keep the love alive? What examples of obstacles can you share with regards to how you overcame them?

Let me start by saying that I always knew I wanted to grow up , get married and become a mother. I didn't look at it like my knight in shining armor rescuing me and we live happily ever after but I saw it in a real sense . I always promised myself that no matter what I would have kids by the same man and not a different dad for each kid . I have alot of cousins who are half brothers and sisters and I am not saying that anything is wrong with that but I do have some aunts that aren't sure about the father of their children and I knew early on that I didn't want to have to face those types of problems when I grew up .
When I met Mr. Breazy , I was 15 . I was not like most 15 year old girls , instead I was more mature . It seemed that we hit it off immediately and it wasn't long before things started getting very serious between us . We have always had this wonderful level of communication between us . Sometimes it seems we can have a complete conversation by looking at each other and speaking no words , I know it sound ooshey gooshey but it is true . I wanted someone who loved me for me , not because of what I looked like or who I was friends with but just me being me . Mr. Breazy fit that category perfectly . He was the first person that I ever told about my being molested for ten years of my childhood and sharing that secret alone formed an unexplainable bond immediately because he didn't look down on me or think I was dirty as I thought he would , instead he ended up being my saving grace .
I didn't plan on getting pregnant at 16. I was supposed to finish school then get married , then have the baby but things didn't work out that way. I wasn't afraid to tell Mr. Breazy that I thought I was pregnant because it was one of the many subjects that we had touched on before . When I found out that I was pregnant , I embraced the responsibility and I was determined to make it work no matter what sacrifices had to be made . Three months after we found out we were expecting , Mr. Breazy popped the question . I was a sophomore in high school and I soon realized that I wasn't the only one in my grade that was pregnant . Mr. Breazy and I joined a teen pregnancy class that was held at a local hospital . There were about 14 girls in the class,I was one out of two who still had a relationship with the father of my baby . I started doing speeches about being a pregnant teen at local high schools and within a month of visiting other schools I was the only one who still had the father by my side , to this day out of the 14 in that class , I am the only one still with the father .
Some of the obstacles that we have faced and beat are him being an alcoholic ( this upcoming May will mark his 9th year of being sober) , my being molested ,(you nor I have enough time to go into all the problems I had from that), having a child before both of us were really full grown ourselves , people being against us being together and many , many more . All of these things we faced head on but most importantly we faced them together .
I believe that if two people really love each other and they want things to work out then they will find a solution , but there has to be trust and you will get nowhere with out communicating . If you don't tell someone exactly how youfeel then how are they to know. Another thing we do is make sure that we take time for just the two of us , sometimes this is few and far between but if we really need to spend alone time we make it possible . We aren't big gift buyers because we would rather say or show what we are feeling rather than buying a gift however , there are times that I surpise him with a gift and visa versa.


5. You write in another place 'I never feel like I let the real me show online.' (and darn
me, I wrote the quote and can't find the right post to reference it) So let's say I am coming to Tennesee and I want to meet you.
What surprises will I find? What side of you will I only get to see in person? Will the real Breazy please stand up.

Thanks for playing along, Breazy. You are a dear and I enjoyed the archive diving to put this together.

one of the first differences you would notice would be that the topic of my conversations doesn't always include my hubsand , children and my everyday life as it seems to on my blog . You would also see that the shyness, for lack of a better word, that I have online isn't the case in person. You would see that I love to sit back , relax and laugh , that I am a bit dramatic when I am feeling very passionate about a subject , that I love facts instead of hearsay , that 99.9% of the time I have a positive outlook on life and it's events . I am not one to sit around the house ,instead I want to be outside doing something even if it is passing some time under a shade tree with a friend . You would also see that I am not always as confident as I try to be in myself , you would see that I am the type of person who no matter where we see each other and who we are with , I will always speak even if briefly . You would also see that I am a huge worrywort . I worry about everybody , just ask BSoholic because I am forever emailing him just to see if all is well with him as a matter of fact I probably get on his nerves sometimes worrying about him . The worrying is something I can't seem to help and the fact that I haven't met all of my friends face to face make no difference to me . Another thing you would see is that I am pretty straight forward where as on here sometimes I am that way , other times I am a bit cautious . For instance , if someone asks me my opinion on something they have done , I always take the cautious route here because I don't want them to take my meaning in a different way . In person I don't take that caution , I will tell you if I think your writing is bad or if I didn't agree on the topic because I feel more comfortable when I am face to face with others . You would also see that I can't lie because my face is like that of a clear river , you can see all the way to the bottom with no obscurities in the way . My face tells all of my emotions and most times I don't even remember to try and bank my emotions .

Once again I want to thank you Lime for taking the time to create this interview ! I had alot of fun doing it and it was very thought provoking !

The rules of the Interview Game are: If you want to participate, leave a comment below saying, "interview me." I will respond by asking you five questions - each person's will be different. You will update your journal/blog with the answers to the questions. You will include this explanation and an offer to interview others. When others ask to be interviewed, you will ask them 5 questions.

a new toy .....

Hey all ! Oh do I have some good news . First of all , the bad storms that were supposed to hit us dead on last night actually started blowing north east right before it got to my area so we didn't have the damage that most experienced but we did have some of the worst rain, thunder and lightning that I have ever saw in my lifetime . Some of the areas northwest and northeast to us wasn't so lucky .

Okay , now that that is out of the way , I have something else exciting to tell y'all . As I mentioned in a previous post , I have been working on Mr. Breazy about purchasing a digital camera . He has put me off most times but lately he was listening so he told me we would shop for one this weekend maybe . The reason he got in the mood to go browse around was because spring is here , he has a new Stratos bass boat that he bought in November and until recently he had only had it on the lake two times . He will be fishing in a tournament every tuesday night from now until August and he loves to take pics of the fish he and his friend catch so all of this played right in to what I wanted . Woohoo! He took the plunge today and purchased a digi cam. I took Blither and Sals advice and made sure that it had the reachargeable batteries , timer , tri-pod , you name it and this thing has it . Not only is it a camera but I can also record homevideos with it and yes , it does have sound . I noticed that alot of them don't have the sound with the movie mode so I wanted one with the sound . It has just about anything you could imagine and I got the whole package camera , case , tri-pod and all for under $200. I haven't even taken my first pic yet because I haven't really had time to play with it yet . Now I will be a regular HNTer !

For those of you that were having probs reading my posts , please let me know if this is better and if it isn't then I will try something else . I can see it very clearly on mine so y'all will have to help me out . Thanks all !

it's finally friday ...

Good friday morning all ! I hope all of you have had a wonderful week and I hope you have an even better weekend . As you can see , I have done some decorating and changing around here . As much as I love the beach template , it was a bit hard to read the writing unless I enlarged it and put it in bold so I decided to go with something perky .

Monday morning I will be posting some answers to an interview on here . Lime is going to interview me and I am really excited to see what questions she has for me. The questions are supposed to be very thought provoking and there is a huge chance that you are going to learn some things about me that you wouldn't otherwise find out .

On to other things , there are a few of us here in blogland that need some serious wishes , prayers and good thoughts going up for us . We are expecting some very severe weather this afternoon into the evening and the local meteorologists are telling us to stay alert ,to go ahead and set a plan just in case the weather is as bad as they expect . If you remember correctly , tornadoes ripped through West Tennesse , Dyer County to be exact , this past sunday . The storm system we are expecting today is supposed to be a bit more fierce than that one and it just so happens that my county is in the high danger zone . I have my hackles up and I'm sure that I am going to get ribbed over this storm system because I have always been interested in the weather and I always keep an eye out and take precautions when bad weather threatens . The other bloggers that I spoke of that you need to keep in your thoughts today include BSoholic who lives three hours away from me in Nashville , Bubbles who lives a few minutes north of me in Knoxville , Kaliblue who lives in Maryville which is the same town as me and Ameratis better known as "The Imp" who lives in Alabama . I am hoping that these storms just peter out but I am not going to blow it off as the meteorologists getting all excited over some thunderstorms .

I weighed in wednesday and I have lost a total of 9.2 lbs , I go weigh in today and I am excited to see how much more I have dropped . I can't wait until the end of this month because on the 28th, 29th and 30th Mr. Breazy and I will be away for my birthday and our 13th anniversary . My birthday is the 29th , I will be 31, and our anniversary is on May 1st . I can't believe we have been married for 13yrs . It sure doesn't seem like it nor does it seem like we have together for 15 and a half years . I have always looked at my marriage as having a best friend with benefits kinda relationship because Mr. Breazy is my best friend and he knows me better than any other human on the face of this earth . Well , I guess that is about all I have for today , y'all be safe and have a wonderful weekend ! :)

oh yay....or something like that

Good half nekkid morning all ! I do not have a pic today , nothing unusual eh?, you wouldn't want to see a pic of me right now anyways. As I said in a previous post , my son has a bacterial infection in both eyes . His eyes are getting better everyday and as everyone with common sense knows, eye infections are very contagious. The doctor told us , even though he didn't have to , to wash our hands before and after medicating my sons eyes . Okay, I am by handwashing as Rainman is by baseball statistics . I am constantly washing my hands on a normal day and no I am not one of those germ phobia people , I just like to have germ free hands . I also keep hand sanitizer in every room of my home but evidentally all of my handwashing hasn't helped me out this time . All day yesterday my left eye bothered me , itching and just very irritating . Well , I woke up this morning and couldn't open my left eye . I have contracted my sons eye infection ....blech!

My son has had this eye infection since sunday and every time I ask he has told me that his eyes do not hurt and they are not sore , just irritating . Okay so why is my eye sore and nerve racking ? I have to go pick up my antibiotic drops in a bit so that we can clear this little problem up . If you know someone is sick and you have to be around them but you don't want what they have , take me with you and I bet you won't get it but I will ! hehe ! My luck just runs that way . Oh well , no biggie , it will be cleared up in a few days and all will be right with my world again , in the meantime things are a bit blurry ..hehe .

If you like looking at all of the HNT pics then go check out my friends that I share a blog with on Highjacked . They always do something very cool and fun however , I did not participate this week , I am still on Mr. Breazy about a digital camera and I do believe my battle is almost over because he asked me if I want to go check some out this weekend . Keep your fingers crossed for me on that ! Y'all have a lovely day ! :)

got my game face on .....

Good morning all ! Today is a new day and things are a changin' here in the Breazeale household.

While taking my 14 year old daughter to school this morning I was informed that I "don't even care" . This was brought up because there is a new cd out today that she wants and she told her dad that we need to go get it , well , her dad told her that she hadn't done dishes or swept in two weeks . The dishes and sweeping rule goes like this .... two nights a week each girl has to do dishes or sweep , while one is doing one of those chores the other girl will do the other then the next night they will switch , this is all that I ask them to do other than keep their rooms clean and take their dirty clothes from their hamper to the laundry room . Since Mr. Breazy pointed out that she hadn't done her chores she got all definsive about it like she always does and she waits until we are on our way to school , away from Mr. Breazy to let me know her opinion . The reason she does this is because #1 Mr. Breazy will smack her mouth if she gets too smart mouthed with him and #2 she knows that most times I will hear her out and then we talk about it and in the end she does what she was supposed to do in the first place . I don't have a problem with the way Mr. Breazy handles things because that is what works for him but it doesn't work for me . I rarely smack my kids bottoms because I find that taking the things they enjoy most is what hurts them the most . Sure , you can spank them , and we do believe in spankings around here , but that doesn't work with me .

When it comes to our children Mr. Breazy and I are completely different , however, when he diciplines I don't step in and when I do the diciplining he doesn't step in , I will stand behind his decision and visa versa and God help the child that tries to play us against each other . Anyways, my daughter says that I suffer from OCD when it comes to cleaning and organizing , which is true but I also understand that they are kids and things aren't always going to be as clean or as my daughter says "perfect" as I might want them and that is okay with me as long as they make an effort . Here lately there has been no effort to do anything helpful around here so yesterday as soon as they got home from school I told them that I had been in their rooms and I was not happy with the way they looked nor was I happy with the closets in either room . I gave them until 8pm last night to get everything cleaned up and organized a bit . Both of them done as I said and believe it or not it didn't kill either of them! My sons weekly chore is to clean the bathroom once a week and help me keep the trash emptied in there . He always does what he is supposed to do without a fuss and his room is always picked up and mostly in order , very rarely do I have to get on to him about his room.

Anyways, I got to thinking about what all my daughter said this morning about me not caring and I am really pissed so I have decided that playtime is over , we are gonna get our game on around here . I am giong to create and print some spreadsheets today listing things that have to be done daily and checked when each chore is done . I am also going to list the activities that they are going to earn by doing these chores . Each one of my three kids will have their own list . When they get home and read the lists , I know my oldest is going to blow up but I will be ready and waiting for that. My kids don't get alot of tv time the way it is and if they want to mess with me then I will take the tv's completely out of their rooms and sell them . Tv is a very precious thing to my kids because we monitor what they watch and how long . With my oldest I have alot of goodies to take from her if she wants to give me lip and I am willing to take it all . I don't care if her room is left with nothing but a bed in it when we are done , I am going to show her ! I probably sound like a terrible mother but from my view point my kids have it easy because all I ask them is to pick their room up each day and then once a week do a big cleaning on it , this seems to keep those horrible messes, that takes hours to clean ,from happening . The only other thing is what I mentioned before about dishes one night sweeping one night , and then my son does the bathroom one day and helps keep the wastebasket empty in there .

If you have any really good ideas , please leave them in the comments or if you have certain things you have your children do I would love to hear about it . Hearing about these things lets me know that I am not alone in this battle ! Y'all have a good day !

beautiful days, a wild night and an eye infection ....

Good morning all ! I don't know about your area but here in beautiful East Tennessee we have been having awesome temps . It has been 75 and above since thursday and I am loving it . We had our Easter dinner after church yesterday and it was supposed to be 80 but when we got out of church and headed for the fellowship hall for dinner it was raining and the sky was nasty and ugly . Yesterday was a rough day for Tennessee and alot of the surrounding states . 15 people were killed in West Tennessee yesterday , 12 in one county and 3 in another , when tornadoes ripped through . Around 8pm last night was our first warning that bad weather was here . My husband ran to Wal-Mart after church and called to tell me to turn the tv to a local station because the National Weather Service had just issued a tornado warning for most of the area . I had just been outside not even an hour before but when I went out this time something completely different was there . The sky was a dark blueish gray , low hanging clouds with a greenish tint to them . I immediately turned to the local weather station and found out that Maryville should be okay as far as tornadoes go but they were expecting severe storms through out the night and wind damage was a concern.

Around 3am a horrible thunderstorm blew through here and it was still going at 5am when a huge crack of thunder woke my 10yr old , I had went back to sleep by this time and she woke me up when she screamed " mom , the house is going to blow away" . I got up and put her in bed with her older sister since her brother was in my bed sick . When I got up at 5:30 the first thing I done was got a cigarette and went out on the front stoop to check out everything and the only thing I could see was our cedar tree is now leaning slightly to the right , other than that everything was as it should be . Knoxville didn't fair as well as we did though , they are dealing with downed trees and flooded roads.

My son woke up with red , irritated , puffy eyes yesterday and I thought it was allergies but as the day wore on I started thinking a bit differently . Around 4pm his right eye started swelling and draining just a bit and thought still that it was allergies because his eyes have been this way before due to allergies . By the time my husband got home from church and his trip to Wal-Mart , I had called my mom and was ready to head to the ER with my son . He has a bacterial infection in both eyes and now has antibiotic drops that have to be instilled in his eyes every four hours . He goes back to his regular pediatrician today for an ADHD re-check and I am going to have her check his eyes just to be on the safe side .

Anyways, I guess that is about all I have to gab about this morning so I am going to be on my merry way ! Y'all have a good day , be safe and take care! :)