thoughts and confessions

Each morning I get up between 5 and 6am but this morning I overslept and my oldest daughter woke us up at 7:20. Holy moly ! At 7:20 on a normal day I am dropping my two youngest off at the elementary school . This morning my 13 yr old had to be at school early so I took her and my husband took the others . Each morning on my way home from the middle school I pass a church and they , like most churches, have the sign out front with a saying on it . For some reason this morning that sign caught my eye and I couldn't quit thinking about it . Here is what it said "what we see , often depends on what we are looking for " .

As I said , I couldn't get that out of my mind . I truly never thought about it that way but it is the truth if I have ever heard it . Think about it , if you are in a bad mood all that happens is bad things , if you are happy the sun seems to shine a little brighter that day or if you are depressed it seems you can find nothing that looks promising to you . Why this made so much sense to me this morning , I will never know but it did . Anyways , it led my thoughts to a conversation that I had in PM with Bsoholic last night . I told him that I never feel like I let the real me show online . I am not saying that I hide the real me but I have a trouble putting my thoughts down in words . It would be completely different if I were sitting and talking to each of you . So these thougths led me to this conclusion , I need to try and share a bit more of myself with you all so that I don't feel like I am living a lie with my online friends.

First thing I want to say is that I have never tried to hide anything from any of you but I feel like I haven't been completely clear from time to time . Not intentional mind you but still not clear none the less. Anyways here are a few things about me that I would like for you to know .

~I am a christian . I do not judge others if they don't believe the same thing I do because I believe that we all have the right to our own beliefs. Nor do I push my beliefs on anyone at anytime .
~I can't stand prejudice people !
~I am overweight .
~When I used to play trivia madness I was called "Sweet Breazy" alot . This use to bug me because if any of you met me in person you probably wouldn't call me sweet .
~I am a worrier , especially when it comes to my friends , even if it is online friends. I care about y'all and I can't stand to see anybody hurting and me not at least try to do something about it . Just ask Bsoholic , I have probably bugged the shit out of him before when I knew something was wrong but I didn't want him feeling like he had to go it alone.
~I am a #1 smartass. Around here I am called the comeback Queen .
~I let my mouth override my backside alot . That is called speaking before ~thinking and I have a real problem with it ! hehe
~I have an obsession with cleanliness. Whether it be my house , my van , my body, your house , your car , your body , I can't seem to help it but I want everything clean and organized.
~My best friend is the trash can . If you put something somewhere it doesn't belong , you have x amount of time to move it or it goes into my circular file .
~I am actually a really humorous person but it rarely shows on here.
~I am very spastic .
~I have a very rebellious spirit . If you say I can't I will walk through hell with gasoline soaked shorts just to prove you wrong ! I don't know why I am like this because this hasn't always been my way.
~Authority and I do not mix . Sometimes when my hubby is telling me something I feel like he is bossing me , which he isn't , it is just me getting my panties in a wad, anyways I start mouthing to him and before you know it I am ready to throw down and swing my punches .
~Rember my 101 list a couple days ago. #101 was " I feel like a living contradiction" . I honestly do because I hate shopping unless I am in the mood for it , I can be as girly as any other woman but I am the type that would pick four wheelers and dirt bikes over a trip out with the ladies most times .
~Laughing and sex are two very important things to me .
~I love being outdoors especially in the fall or at the beach .

That is all that I am going to do for today but I just felt like there was a couple of things I needed to talk about . Y'all have a good day !:)