takin' some time ...

Hey all ! This will be my last post for a while because I am going to take some time to get myself together . I have something going on with my body that is causing problems and even though I am scared senseless I need to have some tests done to find the problem. Something happened to me this morning that really scared my kids and it is just time to put off going to doctor and get it taken care of . Let me explain a bit better....

If you remember , I done a post back in July about a cyst on my left ovary bursting . Since then I have had some pain from that ovary that I shouldn't be having . Yesterday(tuesday) was like any other day except I didn't feel real good and couldn't name where I felt bad at . I have days like this here and there and normally a good nights sleep cures it . Well , last night about 10pm my left ovary started hurting and by the time I went to bed at around 11:30 it was to the point that I couldn't get comfortable. I finally was able to find a position that didn't hurt so bad and I dozed off . Around 1am my son woke me up because he had a bad dream . After being up with him for about five minutes I started hurting worse so I took a vicodin and went back to bed once my son was back to sleep. This morning when I got up I was still hurting and I done as I do every morning , I headed to the bathroom .

To make a long story short , I collapsed in the bathroom . The bad thing about the whole incident is that my 11yr old daughter saw the entire thing and it scared her very bad because she thought I was dying . After she walked out of the bathroom she turned around and came back to ask me a question . She said that I grabbed my side , moaned loudly and just hit the floor and once I was on the floor she said that I was "twitching". She called to me a couple of times , heard her dad coming so she took off for her room . After being out for about two minutes I came awake hearing Mr. Breazy talking to me and he was holding my hand . I was crumpled in the corner , near our open doored linen closet . It took a bit before I could really catch my breath and get up even with help. Mr. Breazy made me sit on the closed toilet while he wet a washcloth in cold water for my face and he had to hold me up because I knew that I was going to pass out again but he made me lean my head back while he washed face with the cold cloth and thank God I didn't go out again .

I have passed out before but never has it been like this . It has never came on me as fast as it did this morning . Normally I have a bit of time to sit down or at least get a hold of something and call out for help but not this morning . All day long I have felt lightheaded and dizzy and just basically not steady on my pins . I made Mr. Breazy go on to work and I went back to bed . My mom came over to sit with me while I bathed because Mr. Breazy wouldn't have it any other way . He said he didn't want me passing out in a tub full of water and drowning so I called Mama . I am scared to go to the doctor and find out what is wrong but tomorrow I have to call and go because I can't live with this pain and I can't go around passing out all the time . What scares me the most is what if this had happened while I was taking my kids to school ? That brings tears to my eyes just thinking about it . Another thing is that I am bruised several places, including my face where the wall and floor jumped out to meet my body as it fell and even though I don't consider myself old at age 31 , I couldn't handle bruises like this often . I think the worst one is on the back of my left arm above the elbow where my arm fell on the edge of the wall then my head on my arm.

I have had some other tell tell signs of things going on so it is time to go to the doctor before it gets worse . I don't know if I will be back to blogging in a couple days , a week or whenever but I will get back as soon as I feel better . I will be on daily to check my email because I correspond with my kids teachers through email almost daily . With all that being said , for those of you that pray , please keep me in your prayers . For those of you that don't pray then cross your fingers for me . Y'all be safe , take care and I will miss you !