unexpected changes.....

Yesterday I had time to visit each and every blog on my blog roll and comment. In some of those comments I mentioned that I was no longer working and would explain in a post all about it. If you read my previous post then you know that I didn't make any resolutions/goals this year and I decided just to take it day by day. I also mentioned that I went back to work on Wednesday and that I had a good day..well, Friday I went in to work and was called into the big boss's office and got to listen to a load of crap about multiple mistakes I had supposedly made on Wednesday and that the result of those supposed mistakes was termination. That's right, I was fired! Can you say SHOCK? However, when I asked what mistakes I had made there were only about three or four things mentioned and I wasn't allowed to look at the messy hand written sheet she was going by.

I wasn't shocked because I was fired, I knew that was coming three weeks ago when I called my boss to let her know when I could come back from medical leave, she told me during that phone call that she was cross-training another girl for the office. I knew then that I was toast because there are certain things concerning the hospital that I can't talk about on here (let's just say tight budget and a huge merge and leave it at that). Just to give an example regarding those "multiple mistakes" I supposedly made Wednesday, one thing mentioned was that I hadn't checked phone messages at all. Funny thing about this one is that as soon as I got to the office Wednesday morning I listened to the messages, all 15 of them and as I had time between patients I returned phone calls to every single one and if the big boss cares to check she will find paper trails to each return call I made. Another thing mentioned was that I hadn't ordered file folders for the next day, this one is funny because on Wednesday I had no file folders to work with because whoever worked the previous business day didn't order them..hahaha..the joke must be on me. I know for a fact that the folders for Thursday arrived first thing Thursday morning because I asked the lab techs as soon as I arrived on Friday, see the problem is the fax machine in the office is old as Moses and as of late the transmissions aren't going through but you will receive a sheet saying transmission ok and the number of pages you faxed so you have to call whoever you are faxing and ask if they received it, there is also a paper trail of my phone call to the office that keeps our folders that I made Wednesday. Another thing mentioned was that I had clocked out twenty minutes early on Wednesday, I told big boss that my department boss told me when I was hired for the position to clock out and go home when I was finished with all of my work.

I didn't really defend myself much because to me it would have sounded like begging and because I knew they were reaching and grabbing not to mention the fact that they had already made up their minds, they knew they were reaching and grabbing as well. I was very mad and started at one point to blow my top but instead I pulled that back in and that is when the tears came, the temper had to come out some how and I wasn't going to make a show of myself by blasting anyone out so I let the tears flow. Big boss made sure to tell me that she didn't want me to think that my surgery and medical leave had anything to do with my termination because it didn't and to be honest I don't think the surgery or ML had anything do with it, however I do know that they couldn't have fired me while I was on ML or I could have sued...little do they know I am not the suing type and thank goodness for that because I could sue them over this because they went against a lot of the labor laws, I didn't mention that to them.

I have never before been fired so I never knew what came with it. I was so humiliated that I couldn't see straight mainly because they were trying to make it out like I didn't know my job, they made me feel stupid and unworthy. I immediately went back to my office, gathered my things and said good bye to my co-workers. Upon telling them that I had been fired I knew that some of them had been aware that it was going to happen, others were just as shocked as I was. Once I got into my vehicle a new wave of mad and humiliation hit me because my department boss didn't even have the nerve to sit in big boss's office and face me while this whole thing went down. Who sat with me in big boss's office while I was being fired? My previous department boss and she offered support when it was over.

All day Friday I cried, not because of the loss of the job, it was just a job after all, but because they lied. My one question is why couldn't they tell me the truth instead of making me out to be some bumbling idiot that didn't know my rear from a hole in the ground? I had a hard time sleeping Friday night and Saturday I was out of tears but I felt down all day. Sunday I felt a little better but I was still down. Monday morning I woke up and was home alone. Mr. B had taken the kids to school and went on to work, he knew that I had had a very hard time sleeping over the weekend so he let me rest. While puttering through the house doing this and that I had lots of time to think about the situation and then I felt so much better. Did I mention that on Friday when I told Mr. B and the kids what had happened they jumped for joy? Not because I was fired but because I wouldn't be working anymore, none of them liked it when I was working.

Through all of this I have learned a few things and one of them is that I will not be going outside my home for work any where in the near future even if I am bored to tears with being home, I will remain here and return to all of the work I done for Mr. B's business before getting the job in the first place. This morning when I woke up all the sad feelings were gone, I am happy to be back at home. I will not take working at home for granted again because while working at the hospital I realized that I am not cut out for all of the drama that goes along with working in huge groups. I just don't jive with all of the he said she said business because if I have something to say to or about someone I don't blab it to everyone else, I go straight to the person and say it, stabbing people in the back just isn't my cup of tea.

With all of this being said I have to admit that I feel much better. I don't like beating around the bush about things or just saying a few words on a matter because it makes me feel like I am hiding something and now all of you know why I am not working anymore and I feel better!

Before I go I would like to ask all of you to stop by and give Sal a few words of encouragement. This morning his mother passed away and we all know how difficult it is to deal with the loss of a loved one. Just remember him and his family in your prayers.

Y'all have a lovely evening and take care!